I remember it all too well

You know that moment when something, a place perhaps? or a song.. a sweet familiar scent.. the path you used to take.. You know when those things trigger a stream of memory long forgotten and somehow it manages to break through the dam you foolishly built, thinking that it would be enough, but apparently it doesn't so the stream of memory continues to flow and fill your mind until it finally found its way out through your eyes, sliding down your cheek, but even in the midst of chaos inside, you are still grateful to witness something beautiful, because for a moment there, through the teary eyes, just before the tears roll down.. there is this blur galore that creates this ocean of dreamy bokeh that  surrounds you, and for a second there you thought maybe things are not as bad as it seems.. maybe one way or another you will find your way again through the confusing maze of life, but then the tears fall down, and everything was clear again.. turns out the dreamy bokeh are nothing more than street lights along the highway.. and the memory in your head is just.. a memory, and you have classes that day, and it is still hot outside even though it is beginning of November already, and there's people you miss and things you regret, and your finals are coming exactly next month, and you wonder if the people you sometimes wander about are wondering about you, and you'll reach 20 in a little over a month, and you secretly wish the things you've lost could find it's way back one way or another, and then you hear the rain is pouring outside.. but you are perfectly snuggly and tucked in and typing this post and then you look over and think.. maybe it's not that bad, maybe if you look hard enough.. just maybe.. you can find bits and pieces of happiness left scattered inside, which is not a lot but hopefully would be just enough to keep you going until you've reached whenever you're suppose to be, until you meet the people you've missed, until the memory becomes reality once again, and until the dreamy bokeh doesn't turn out to be street lights along the highway even when your vision are perfectly clear.

The One I'm Chasing After

Before things turn sour
and hopes wither
Caught up in delusional desire
Can you do me a favor?
Just help me remember
The one I'm chasing after

Go wherever
to find the answer
Give up my forever
to spend with you later
Please help me remember
The one I'm chasing after

Lie down here
Hoping to get near
Is it summer? Why it's getting colder?
Soon enough everyone will gather
to help me remember
The one I'm chasing after

Dust is mixing with air
Commotion everywhere
Though my heart's bitter
Now I'm able to remember
Somewhere out there
The one I'm chasing after

Days go by, yes I suffer
but keep looking for my dear
Finally... finally here
Among the crowd across the barrier
Saw a face looking familiar
We are staring at one another
Me and the one I'm chasing after

Knock knock

Who's there?
It's me, holiday.
Say wuuutt? o_0

Yeaaah holiday is within my grasp. It's next week! Although I barely studied anything during short semester (all I ever did were get into classes, some swimming, a little workout, some drawing with wacom thingy, yada yada) but it feels amazingg to actually ACTUALLY embrace the holiday that's coming. Um, no, I actually don't have anything planned but hopefully something cool will unfold during the holiday, which.. I highly doubt but aaanyway it's been sale season lately!

I've been searching for a cheap.. I mean, affordable peplum top but no luck so far :( but on the other hand, I managed to build up my skirt collection. I'm also looking for dresses, but no luck. I've been eyeing this one minty green dress from pull&bear that I loooveeeee because of the delicate non tacky floral pattern and light flowy fabric, so when I heard that they're having a sale, I was like "you are sooooo gonna be in my closet tonight" but then I stormed inside the store only to find out they reduced only 100.000idr from the original price, which was 599k idr. So I was like, nothing to do here ~(/ '__')/ Same thing goes for Zara, I couldn't manage  to score any of the pretty peplums since every single one is still too overpriced even after the sale! Overly priced chained stores, please have mercy on me. All I want is a peplum top and I'd be as happy as a bee! And maybe you can add a few cute dresses also, just a few, and some outerwears, light scarves, and probably bags and shoes.. geez I cannot begin to tell you how short I am on accessories. Well before it goes on and on I probably should be going back to do.. whatever I was doing sooo au revoirrr

And one last thing, I finally fixed the headerrr. But it's looking too plain I think :/ I might do something about it later.

As you can see I tried to change my header earlier today and I totally got the sizing wrong therefore it appeared too big, and then I thought about altering it only to realize that I totally forget how to! So I decided to delete it and see what would appear, and voila! A teeny tiny misplaced header on the top left of the blog, oh well I then decided to left it like that for an undisclosed amount of time. 

Anyway this week is the first week of short semesterrr. The dreadful 4th semester are wayyy behinddd. I only took 2 subjects on this short semester which are digital art and sport, both are soooooo not me! Digital art terrified me before, I mean, the name of the subject is already intimidating! It's like something heavily involve in technology and computer and stuff like that and here I am being technologically challenged, decided to take the plunge and turns out... it's not so bad at all! Which definitely come to me as a surprise, so on the first meeting which was last Monday we were asked to draw an apple using an existing example and we had to do it with wacommm! It was my first time using it, and it was confusing at first but I think I managed to get a hang of it in the end.

Next was sport, I took it merely because it was an easy subject. And for the first timeee we got a native english speaking lecturerrr. Wohooo! So I think this short semester would be easy breezy which is exactly what I need after last semester which was... where should I even begin? It was sooo messed up, full of drama, sadness, yet it was boring and also tiring at the same time, both physically and emotionally, not only in class, like education wise, but also friendship wise and everything. So now that it's all over and things start to calm down and the sun shines, birds are chirping, I guess.. I'll try my best to spare some time to write on this blog again.

Till next timeee

Valentine's Day

These first two pictures were all the chocolates I got on last year's Valentine's day

...and these two were how many I've got this year

Apparently I've lost quite a number of fans! Hahahahahaha

Last Week

FRIENDS. Another meet up with my friends last Wednesday! We watched Underworld which was.. fine I guess, I don't really get it since I didn't watch the previous movie and some of the fighting scenes were pretty disturbing for my liking :s

BED SHEET. My dad randomly found this forgotten spongebob bed sheet on Tuesday and I just can't wait to put it on, so I did it the following day. Couldn't resist rolling on it over and over again that it makes me feel like a giant sushi.

RAMEN. Finally went to Ikkousha! Home of the so called best ramen in town. I ordered the chicken ramen and it was.. good. I don't have the urge to come back as soon as possible though, like some people probably do. Honestly I think it's a little bit overhype, but hey maybe it's just me and my awful taste buds. 

POLKADOT. The moment I saw the peterpan collar and the sheer, flowy material.. it triggered sparks in my eyes. It took us looong time though to finally decided on buying it, but I'm so glad we did.

Hello I'm very sleepy but I need to work on my typography assignment. Noooooo I hate typography. Well, on a second thought, I hate assignments in general. I just finished my computer graphic assignment and right now I'm taking a break/ procrastinating on typography assignment, but it's 9pm already and I should probably start doing it sooo I need to get off the internet.. which is hard.. but I have to.. and I'm totally rambling right now.. ok bye. 

A Quick Get Together

After several unsuccessful attempts on making plans to meet up, me and my friends finally managed to spare some time for each other. The day started without me though, as they went to our former high school and grabbed some lunch at around 1 pm, and then they went straight to my another friend's house, which is actually our junior in high school. Later that day they went to Pluit Junction, and I finally able to join in the fun when they had dinner at  Callista Garden.

 

 

Low quality pictures are such a pain to edit :/

Lousy Monday

Not much happened today, aside from the fact that my typography lecturer decided not to show up therefore two hours was spent on watching a movie about helvetica, and earlier today, another two were spent on listening to my design & art appreciation lecturer rambled on and on about influential American and Swiss graphic designers. How exciting... NOT and then I accompanied my dear friend Lovi on her shift at ALT registration booth and then we ate something and then she bought a pair of socks to be worn on the ALT event thingy and that pretty much how my day has been. Thank you for reading and as a reward I will present you with a few photos from my Singapore trip during new year last month.

Finally become a legit lokbook-er

Decided to post my first lookbook photo just now. Don't have any expectations that the zero right there would turn into any other numbers anytime soon hahaha.